it's the 23rd of january 2025, this is my first entry. i felt like logging my thoughts while i stay at home for a while.

i am rin, i'm currently struggling with a lot of recent boredom in my life. i figured that talking to myself would help process it a little better.

i'm often told that i should embrace boredom and that it's good not to be afraid of it

i don't know if the boredom is the issue, but there is an overwhelming loneliness that has come with it.

i think i'm more scared of being alone.

currently i am a neet who sleeps at least 12 hours a day, i usually wake up around 1 or 4.

the only person in my life that i felt understood me has left me behind.

it's been really hard, but i'm trying to get over that

i've been in a hole, a deep one. and it's been for about 3 months.

i went to a job interview today so i can get a little cash before i leave, but i'm not feeling good about it

i'm getting sleepy now so i'll stop writing down shit

i've thought about doing daily songs for this, or maybe i should leave that for another page

this is a song i've been listening to a lot recently