it's the 28th of january 2025.

today i met with a childhood friend

it was good catching up

we discussed heartbreak

in a way it made me feel better

but i still feel the same sorrow

...

i was thinking recently about how she would be the same person to me as when we were together

i wonder if she feels the same way

if she ever comes back

i don't want to be cast aside

...

recently i've come to appreciate the peace that there is in silence

closing my eyes and taking in my environment

the mechanical whirr of the machines inside.. the rustling of the leaves as they're pushed by the wind.. the chatter of the trees on a windy evening

boredom can be your friend, too.. and loneliness. a silence once deafening can seem therapeutic.

the loneliness is painful, still...