it's the 31st of january 2025.

i've been wondering recently when it will get any better

it's been a really hard time for me mentally

no matter what i do, i just get the feeling that i need to lie down and sleep

i woke up a little bit earlier today.. i woke up at 11

i'm already ready to go back to bed

i have this horrible feeling in my gut whenever i do anything

things i used to enjoy just aren't doing it for me anymore

everything is a reminder

...

i started hallucinating again

i freeze up in these moments.. but everything felt so real

i felt a monster tearing at my ribcage.. heard it's screams in my face

i often get these hallucinations, they usually last for 5 minutes or so

it doesn't hurt or anything

...

i feel truly alone right now